When I was younger, I used to think life was a bed of roses. I never had to do anything to please anyone or even make decisions that I know will drive me crazy.I've never had to deal with hypocrites,never had to deal with stress or never have I ever had to deal with any crap from anyone. I was young and free...Life was SIMPLE. I used to wake up every morning with breakfast well prepared at the table, dad drove my sis and I to watch sunrise before school started and my parents had never laid a finger on us or punished us before. Sis and I were blessed...very BLESSED....now, still the same.
As years gone by,we're all grown up..There are so many things that need to be put aside to move on with our journey in life.This time there are lots of decisions to be made..work, studies...relationships with friends and close ones.Never have I thought I'd come to this point in life where things are so complicated and it gets me all emotional at certain times.Totally hate this feeling..but I guess this is a phase we all have to get through. ( but I do hope it doesn't come around again)
I was just asking Yennee why does everyone have to leave?I asked cos I've never thought friends would leave and also because I've lost many friends in the past..moving here and there and all around. S.U.C.K.S! Friends to me are gold..I cannot afford to see them go. I had a few really close friends back in the States whom I share practically my life with.. but at the end of the day, with just ONE decision..I lost them. I decided to come back to Malaysia for good and since then, I've never seen again.I doubt I ever will.Its sad though... :( It is easy finding new friends but its not easy having REAL ones. It was months ago when I thought I found a bunch of good friends whom I shared good times with, chillin` out at wee hours..doin` silly things. But unfortunately, with ONE decision I had to make between me and my other half killed it. It took my 'friends' away...But after a while, I realised its all good...If they stay...they are True...if not..I don't see any point having them around. But...GOD IS GOOD..HE's blessed me with one...One that stood by me all along, encouraging me throughout all difficulties. Few days ago, he left.... but one thing I'm glad of is that I know I'll see him again...SOON!.... :)
Was just yesterday that Bernz (my honey lemonade) told me she's gonna be leaving too! ITs sad that everyone's leaving. But by the grace of God, its for the best~ Bernz' a childhood friend...but we've never got so close til recently. She's an amazing friend! Love you much Bernzzzz....And Im SO GONNA MISS U!!
Talking about relationships....Since young, I have a strong relationship with my family. That is why whenever someone tells me anything regarding broken families, I get really depressed and down because throughout my entire life, I've never felt the way these people feel... My times with my family are always HAPPPY....period~ Its sad to know about abusive parents, and parents who just neglect their children because all they look to is $$$... Some of my friends totally despise their parents to the point of wanting them dead. Its hurtful, I understand.
I once had this friend who hated his dad because of his own silly little mistake. He hated his dadsince... He ran away from home and didnt' want anything that has got to do with his dad...Always told me he wanted his dad, dead. *sigh* Afterall...its still his daddy... I just thought he'd learn to forgive . Probably after all that, my friend's wishes did came true. His dad passed on.. and all he had were regrets... I don't know how long will these regrets last...but..I'm sure it will until it all comes to his senses...
Its funny that I'm blogging about all these and if you realised...from the beginning of my post til this point, THEY ARE NOT ALL RELATED! *laughs*
Anyways...what I'm trying to say is that...In our daily lives...people walk by....some people stay, some leave...People who stay are the ones weare to treasure...people who leave are the once we take as experiences. Our family are supposedly our priority. Without them, we're nothing in this world. We're here because both mom and dad decided that we are to come into this world for something good. Parents are parents...sometimes they nag...they grumble and mumble..but know that its for the best~ Some people complain about how their parents can be such 'ass-es' and how their family's all messed up..Think again...Be THANKFUL that you have a family...some don't.
When we look back, people that are gone gave us a reason to smile and know that we have crossed paths at some point in our lives..But people who STAY are the ones we should treasure from now on. Time waits for no man and life's way too short to waste anymore time holding grudges against anyone. Let life be...Life is FREE... We are free to LOVE...
As years gone by,we're all grown up..There are so many things that need to be put aside to move on with our journey in life.This time there are lots of decisions to be made..work, studies...relationships with friends and close ones.Never have I thought I'd come to this point in life where things are so complicated and it gets me all emotional at certain times.Totally hate this feeling..but I guess this is a phase we all have to get through. ( but I do hope it doesn't come around again)
I was just asking Yennee why does everyone have to leave?I asked cos I've never thought friends would leave and also because I've lost many friends in the past..moving here and there and all around. S.U.C.K.S! Friends to me are gold..I cannot afford to see them go. I had a few really close friends back in the States whom I share practically my life with.. but at the end of the day, with just ONE decision..I lost them. I decided to come back to Malaysia for good and since then, I've never seen again.I doubt I ever will.Its sad though... :( It is easy finding new friends but its not easy having REAL ones. It was months ago when I thought I found a bunch of good friends whom I shared good times with, chillin` out at wee hours..doin` silly things. But unfortunately, with ONE decision I had to make between me and my other half killed it. It took my 'friends' away...But after a while, I realised its all good...If they stay...they are True...if not..I don't see any point having them around. But...GOD IS GOOD..HE's blessed me with one...One that stood by me all along, encouraging me throughout all difficulties. Few days ago, he left.... but one thing I'm glad of is that I know I'll see him again...SOON!.... :)
Was just yesterday that Bernz (my honey lemonade) told me she's gonna be leaving too! ITs sad that everyone's leaving. But by the grace of God, its for the best~ Bernz' a childhood friend...but we've never got so close til recently. She's an amazing friend! Love you much Bernzzzz....And Im SO GONNA MISS U!!
Talking about relationships....Since young, I have a strong relationship with my family. That is why whenever someone tells me anything regarding broken families, I get really depressed and down because throughout my entire life, I've never felt the way these people feel... My times with my family are always HAPPPY....period~ Its sad to know about abusive parents, and parents who just neglect their children because all they look to is $$$... Some of my friends totally despise their parents to the point of wanting them dead. Its hurtful, I understand.
I once had this friend who hated his dad because of his own silly little mistake. He hated his dadsince... He ran away from home and didnt' want anything that has got to do with his dad...Always told me he wanted his dad, dead. *sigh* Afterall...its still his daddy... I just thought he'd learn to forgive . Probably after all that, my friend's wishes did came true. His dad passed on.. and all he had were regrets... I don't know how long will these regrets last...but..I'm sure it will until it all comes to his senses...
Its funny that I'm blogging about all these and if you realised...from the beginning of my post til this point, THEY ARE NOT ALL RELATED! *laughs*
Anyways...what I'm trying to say is that...In our daily lives...people walk by....some people stay, some leave...People who stay are the ones weare to treasure...people who leave are the once we take as experiences. Our family are supposedly our priority. Without them, we're nothing in this world. We're here because both mom and dad decided that we are to come into this world for something good. Parents are parents...sometimes they nag...they grumble and mumble..but know that its for the best~ Some people complain about how their parents can be such 'ass-es' and how their family's all messed up..Think again...Be THANKFUL that you have a family...some don't.
When we look back, people that are gone gave us a reason to smile and know that we have crossed paths at some point in our lives..But people who STAY are the ones we should treasure from now on. Time waits for no man and life's way too short to waste anymore time holding grudges against anyone. Let life be...Life is FREE... We are free to LOVE...
GOD FIRST LOVED US
*lol*..I should stop... :P
GOOD NIGHT :)
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