Livin' 27 years of my life, I would reckon 2008 was by far the worst year ever. It seemed like everything was chaotic and nothing seemed to go right. Started off bad enough and ended even worse. *sigh* Thinking about it makes me wonder how did I even find the strength and courage to live through that year.Need I forget,
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength"
"He's my refuge and strength and ever present help in trouble"
The split of the previous dance group had a big impact on me because we were once like a family. Took quite a while to get over the fact that the group no longer exist. That was just the beginning of the very bad year.
In April, grandma passed away and that got even worse. I've never imagined what life was without grandma.She was everything. She made childhood so memorable.I felt lost without grandma because we've never lived a day without her. Its been a year since she's gone and it feels like it was just yesterday that I talked to her at the dinner table. I can still remember her laughter and is able to put in mind the little advises she gave. Even at the ripe age of 90, she would still sit down with me telling me 'Kerry, everything's gonna be okay..'We've seen her pain,we've seen her tears that is why we're smiling now knowing that she's in a better place.
Death is the beginning of a new Life
At the end of July,I ended a 2 yr relationship that wasn't even meant to be from the very start. And because of this particular relationship, I've lost friends that once were close at heart. It felt like pieces of my heart were being thrown to places I don't even know of. How bad can that get? I still see these people around, I still wish I could turn back the hands of time..but that is just out of stupidity. Looking at them made me recall of those times when everything seemed right. Until this very day, I do still wonder what actually happened to us? All I can say now is 'Thanks for the Memories"...they will be cherished. I think I'm old and wise enough to know that
People Leave Traces In Our Hearts
Like it or lump it..life is what it is..
At the end of 2008, I met this guy who turned out to be the most horrifying person on earth. If you wanna know know why. read the post 'Mission what WHAT?'...*enough said.
Its funny how people always complain about the BAD things that happen in life. Whatabout the good things that we're blessed with? Yeh, I've gotta tell myself that too...
At the beginning of July 2008, I had the previledge to attend Hillsong Conference in Sydney,Australia.It was the most amazing thing ever! I'm glad I've saved enough for 2009 as well! =)
"Count Your Blessings"
"You will only see the rainbow after you get through the storm"
2009 has been wonderful by far. I'm much stronger and bolder now after all the 'heart ripping'.*laughs* The amount of people that has been removed from my life, I have now, double the amount...even better! I just can't ask for more. These people are such blessings and they are the people who would speak wisdom into my life and be there to encourage me for all that I'm doing and for all that I'm going to do. They are the people who would hold myhand and walk me through the journey of life..not before me,not behind me..but just right beside me.
For those who are reading, you know who you are....
I cannot thank you enough...and Know that my heart goes out to you all.
(esp:Yennee,Stella,SueYee,Jaye,John,Terry)
Lotsa Love!!
xoxo
