E to the Em-O!

Today was a little different

Although I knew nothing was wrong...

It just felt like the world was doing everything wrong

Everything was chaotic and nothing seemed to make sense

Guess it was just one of those days

Nothing to smile about

Nothing to shout about

All I could do was to sit down and sulk

Haven't felt this way in a long time

-trying.to.smile.at.the.storm-

-the after church hours-

I once said :

You Tube's the closest thing to heaven

Terry and Jasmine
Jasmine

Veen Win

Precious Yenz
Minny Chan! What are you doing? xoxox
Rae
Terry's first time to church
Drama Queen
her name's Stella! hah!

Now I realised
Cameras are 2nd

Goodness! It's FRIDAY!

Exactly 1am!

Just got home from a tiring evening at the gym since 530pm. Call me insane but that is probably all I do..gym, gym, home and gym again. Mom said the gym's my FIRST home..fairly true. *laughs*

Had dance practise with Terry and Jaye a while ago after all the classes were done. Rachael tagged along and practised..SURPRISINGLY! (I know you're reading this Rae!) :)

We were just sweatin` it out at the studio trying to figure out steps for our dance routine. We had heaps of fun tho`. Terry and Jaye are both wonderful people.Awesome dancers too! 3 of us work very well with each other because we tend to give and take. They too come up with brilliant ideas which is what i totally need!

Jaye's been around and dancing with me with even from the very beginning. Her dancing's improved tremendously. She's one great dancer to even start off with. She's got the characteristics of a real dancer. Not bragging! Her feet's always ready to go...performances, practises..She's never failed to say no! Awesome ain't it? :) great job chick!

As for Terry..hmm..this is probably our FIRST performance together. I still remember those times when he used to practise with out PREVIOUS dance group. He was one lost sheep! HAHAAH!! It was pretty difficult for him to cope with the dance routines because he was so new. I've seen him improved from classes to classes and now I can even tell you..I surrender?*laughs* One great chap to be around with! Very genuine! Unlike some who pretty much fake the friendship out of you.ahaha! I've yet to see him go out there and do his thing. His moves are impressive. Dammit! He can even pole dance! You figure! AHAHHA!! I'd be dumb not havin` to dance with him..He's just a total darlin`! :)

Gosh...I know I'm typing things that just dont make sense. My body's so tired but my mind's in the midst of activeness!*laughs* ..Too much cardio and sweating at this wee hour ain't good!*sigh* I have pimples on my forehead now due to lack of sleep. I better get goin` soon!

Oh, btw...I permed my hair today..Lovin` it! :) Mom gave me 'the look' when I came back from the hair salon cos she's never liked me perming my hair. Ah well..

I'm bored, I'm sick and tired of my appearance...

Why not make a change? :)

.out of ideas.

I was just sitting in front of my computer,browsing through songs that I've downloaded

Figured out,no matter how many songs I download, I would hit the same song over and over again

Its not only that

After these few years of teaching, after not having to repeat the same choreography,

I am now

OUT OF IDEAS

TOTALLY!

There are times when I know that I have to keep my mind awake to prepare for a dance class

But then again, I'd sometimes stare blankly at the wall havin` no ideas at all on what to do

I LOVE DANCING...always will

But when passion becomes a job...It can get a a little dreadful

I wouldn't want this passion to die off

Don't think it will anyways

But I need ideas! I need to ATTEND dance classes for fresh ideas!

YOU TUBE's the nearest best thing to heaven

*laughs*

There's no point for this post actually

Think I'm just gonna' go sleep and come up with impromptu steps tomorrow

hah!

Staying awake and cracking my head without any ideas comin` in...

It's pointless!

Good Night!

.My Future Decided.

Today

2 of my childhood buddies told me they're engaged

As much as I'm happy for them, It got me pretty worried about myself

Approaching this age of 27, tell me...which GIRL wouldn't be worried not being attached?

Frankly, at certain times...it'll hit me pretty hard

Deng it!

Its Funny

People tend to ask me

"Wah, not married-ah?"

"Who is your boyfriend-ah?"

"You're not young you know?"

YES

I KNOW!

It is not that I do not want to go on a date or getting all settled down

I just don't wanna date for the sake of dating

I think after being through 'suckass' relationships

I tend to be a little bit more careful

Nothing beats being in a 'crazy' relationship

or

being with someone you hardly even know

Oh-Em-Gee!

*laughs*

Sometimes I do wonder when will I find someone I truly love

Vice Versa

Someone once said

"To find that someone, you have to stop searching"

Which I think makes a lot of sense now

They will appear before you, eventually

My future is in HIS hands

I'll not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow shall worry about itself

My life has been placed before me even before I was born

The best is yet to come!

There are many things to be happy and thankful about

Rather than being worried about what the future holds

I'm having the best days of my life

And when my soulmate decides to show up one day

We'll walk through a new journey together

.My Life's A Blessing.

My Grown Up Christmas List

*a dance studio*

*to live a free and worry-less life*

*happiness*

*to find the man of my life (someone who cares and loves)*

*to be able to travel places*

*watches and perfumes!* -laughs-

*to be the person I WAS CALLED to be*

xoxo

.effin' Hypocrite.

Mind my language

But I'm the state where I so wanna slam this person's head on the wall

Call me a b**ch

I am..as for now..because I've had enough of HIS hypocrasy

Some of you might be thinking it is "this-particular-person"

Makin` things clear..

It is THIS PERSON I MET 2 YEARS ago

Clear *nuff?

Everyone thinks he's such a favorite

They think he's some goodie ol-shoe

I guess people don't show their true colors 'til some sh*t happens

I'm so BLESSED (in a sarcastic way) to have known this arz

YOU need not make a drama out of little things

YOU need not GOSSIP - check yourself

GOSSIPERS are LOSERS

(I can tell you're one..no wonder you've never succeeded in ANYTHING YOU DO)

You TALK BIG

YOU DO NOTHING

YOU ACHIEVED NOTHING

"L"

Thats for YOU

Think I sound MEAN?

HA!

It was meant to be

No point givin' in to a scoundrel like YOU

THANK YOU

for teaching me how to hate

for allowing me to know what and how losers are

for all the STUPID things you said

most of all

Thank you for bein' the effin` HYPOCRITE

(just admit your mistakes, for goodness' sake!)

I can't help but write this...

WITH LOVE

.Changes.

Today I met an old buddy

I guess people do change overtime

He's a totally different man from the times we used to spend together

All I can say is

Its a disappointment seeing who you are now

Why wouldn't the Old YOU come home?

Frus To The Max

Its been a long week

Too many things to do

Too little time

I'm Frustrated

I'm Tired

I'm Stressed

I need a BREAK

I DON'T Need a Kit Kat

I just need a GETAWAY! (so bad)

Sorry Can't Be Perfect

Sometimes it takes so much to please the people around you

Sometimes it just hurts so much to be someone you're not

Sometimes it is just so difficult to put that smile on your face when everything seems wrong

Sometimes you just want to give up in life and in love . . because everything ain't going your way

Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Sorry I still need you to know...

Sorry I cannot be the person you want me to be

Sorry I cannot accomodate to your time and needs

Sorry I cannot adapt to what you are

Sorry I cannot be who I am not

Sorry Can't Be Perfect

...shhhh....

its weird

BUT

:: I think I Like YOU ::

i'll remember . . .

YOU

...and all the good times...

-Love,KerryC-